To My Wife

I love you.

I’m not really sure how else to say it than that: I love you. But there are so many pieces to that.
I love the way that you look. I love the way that you smile.
I love you. I love the way that you feel when I touch you. I love the way that you touch me.
I love the way that you make me feel: giddy, young, naughty. In love.
I love your practicality. I love your effort, and your supportiveness, even though I usually feel like I don’t deserve all that you give.
I love waking up next to you. I love feeling warm from your touch, and hot from thinking about you.
I love not knowing what to expect on a day that I wake up next to you. I love waking up and holding you in my arms.
I love your intelligence. I love your sense of humor. I love how hard you’re willing to fight to make us better.
I love watching you sleep. I love hearing your voice. I love your face, holding it close, caressing it. I love the feel of your hair in my fingers.
I love how you dress. I love how you smile. I love looking at old pictures of you, and realizing how I love you even more now than I did then, whenever “then” was.
I love to help you out around the house. I love to make you breakfast. I love to bring you warm drinks at night.
I love the way that you look at me…even when it’s “the crabby look” (:)), but especially when you look at me and melt my heart because I can tell how much you love me, too.
I will always love you. I will prove to you, each and every day, that I deserve the love you’ve given me, and the love you continue to give to me. You are so beautiful, so wonderful, and so warm.

I love you.

Another Dark Playlist

Just because. This is about 4 1/2 hours worth of music for those with an appreciation of spending way too much time in the dark.

Acretongue -- Hollow (V 2.0)
De/Vision -- Addict
Ravenous -- Silverray (Guardian Angel Edit)
Neuroticfish -- Music for a Paranormal Life (Intelligent Tribal Mix)
Helium Vola -- Omnis Mundi Creatura
Die Form -- Rain of Blood
Stabbing Westward -- Drugstore
Apoptygma Berzerk -- Love Never Dies
Beborn Beton -- Another World
Fictional -- Blue Lights
And One -- Panzermensch
VNV Nation -- Sentinal
Colony 5 -- Knives
Aesthetic Perfection -- The Siren
Funker Vogt -- Martians on the Moon
My Life w/ Thrill Kill Kult -- The Days of Swine and Roses
Controlled Collapse -- Selfless
Fiction 8 -- Let Go
Assemblage 23 -- Collapse
Diorama -- The Girls
The Birthday Massacre -- Play Dead
Siouxsie & the Banshees -- Into the Light
She Wants Revenge -- Out of Control
Rob Zombie -- Living Dead Girl
Revolting Cocks -- Do Ya Think I'm Sexy?
OhGr -- Water
Numb -- Blood
Mentallo & the Fixer -- Decomposed (trampled)
Necessary Response -- Spilling Blood
System Syn -- I Am Here
Rob D -- Clubbed to Death (Kurayamino mix)
David Bowie -- I'm Afraid of Americans
Delerium -- Silence
Garbage -- #1 Crush
Peter Murphy -- I'll Fall With Your Knife
Depeche Mode -- Precious
Concrete Nature -- Vampyres
Diary of Dreams -- The Curse
Informatik -- Temporary (synthetic dream foundation mix)
Mesh -- Who Says? (rough mix)
I: Scintillia -- Melt
Destroid -- Judgement Throne
Bruderschaft -- Forever (original club mix)
Ashbury Heights -- Corsair
Ayria -- Invisible
Imperative Reaction -- As We Fall
Unheilig -- Phoenix
Biomekkanik -- Pitch Black Ocean
Technoir -- Breathe (Iris remix)
Icon of Coil -- Dead Enough for Life
The Dust of Basement -- Your Light (club mix)
Edge of Dawn -- Stage Fright
Grendel -- Zombienation (V2.5K)
We Got This Far -- Sedona
Velvet Acid Christ -- Black Rainbows
Kirlian Camera -- Odyssey Europa (premiere version))

I'm on TV!

No, this article isn't about me...but if you fast forward to about :21 seconds remaining, you'll catch a quick glimpse of my geeky self reading a book on the train.

Autographs available upon request.

I felt like being a DJ the other day...

so I threw together a playlist for the imaginary goth/industrial club in my mind. Despite the fact that it doesn't contain a lot of new music (outside of A23) and has one definite no-no (Lady Gaga...oh, well, I'm allowed one bit of randomness), I don't think it's half bad.

Clan of Xymox Obsession

Soil & Eclipse Thief of Always

Depeche Mode A Pain That I'm Used to

Lady Gaga Pokerface

Unheilig Fang Mich Auf

Covenant Call the Ships to Port

Rosetta Stone Adrenaline (extended)

Fictional Blue Lights

Bigod 20 On the Run

Pinworm Acetone

VNV Nation Legion

Skinny Puppy Inquisition (extended)

Battery The Betrayel (megamix)

Thrill Kill Kult The Days of Swine and Roses

Sister of Mercy Nine While Nine

Snake River Conscpiracy Lovesong

London After Midnight Kiss

Juno Reactor God is God

Garbage #1 Crush

Die Form Rain of Blood

NIN Reptile

Mesh Trust You

Apoptygma Berzerk Love Never Dies

Wolfsheim Heroin, She Said

Depeche Mode Lie to Me

Assemblage 23 Collapse

Beborn Beton Another World

Heavy Water Factory Vampire (tasture mix)

SITD Snuff Machinery

Stromkern Night Riders

Delerium Euphoria (Firefly)

Rob D Clubbed to Death (Kurayamino mix)

Love & Rockets Haunted When the Minutes Drag

The Cure Lullaby

Rob Zombie Living Dead Girl

Wumpscut Hang Him Higher

KMFDM Anarchy

Razed in Black Oh My Goth!

Project Pitchfork Timekiller

Megaherz Du Oder Ich

Stabbing Westward Save Yourself

Depeche Mode John the Revelator

Massive Attack Inertia Creeps

Switchblade Symphony Wallflower

Siouxsie & the Banshees Into the Light

Informatik Entropy

Suicide Commando The Reformation

VNV Nation Chrome

Imperative Reaction Drown

Funker Vogt A Dream

She Wants Revenge I Don't Wanna Fall in Love

Covenant Bullet

Diary of Dreams Butterfly:Dance!

Dead Can Dance Yulungu

Concrete Blonde Bloodletting (the Vampire Song)

Assemblage 23 Spark

Bigod 20 Like A Prayer

Fluke Atom Bomb

Unit 187 Dead Dog (punter mix)

Hocico Forgotten Tears (suicide commando mix)

Das Ich Destillat (VNV nation mix)

Numb Blood

Wolfsheim The Sparrows & the Nightingales

Skinny Puppy Testure (12" mix)

Snog Hey, Christian God

Hey, Son, the Novel's Done! (Mostly)

I finished writing the novel project out by hand last night. I'm not sure if I'm 100% happy with the ending, but we'll see. My word count in Nanowrimo is bound to stay unchanged for a few days while I type the rest of my handwritten draft in (the last I checked, as soon as you've submitted 50,000 words you can't add any more, so I plan to get the rest typed in and then submit it).

The final word count for "Red" should be somewhere in the 60-65K range, and while this particular novel doesn't lend itself well to a sequel, the bizarre setting has tremendous potential, and I could definitely see myself setting another story there in the future.

This has been a very fun writing exercise, and unquestionably the most fun I've had writing in a long, long time. I'll keep making minor tweaks as I finish up the typed draft and look at doing a more serious revision in the coming weeks. (The goal here will be to make sure a revision gets done...I've historically been pretty bad about following through on that.)

As ever, thanks to Lib and the kids for putting up with me during this whole enjoyable ordeal -- as always, I couldn't have ground out tens of thousands of words without your support! =)

Novel Progress

Up to about 18,000 words...strange that my little widget hasn't updated like it's supposed to. I'm very excited about this project!

NanoWrimo, Day One -- Success!!!!

Daylight savings gave me some extra time to write this morning...and boy, did I write. I hadn't even done a word count till a short time ago.

This is a good start, since it'll be much tougher for me to update during the week.

Here's the brief novel description posted to the Nanowrimo site:

In the blasted wastelands of a doomed future, a young woman has embarked on a deadly mission. Her quest will take her through the foulest depths of a world crippled by corrupt magic and dark creatures, where mankind struggles against the undying forces that brought about the end of the world.

Her mission is simple: to end the ongoing war between human and vampire, by whatever means necessary.

This woman's name is Red, and she is being hunted.

Hunted by the vampires who are afraid she won't reach her destination.

And hunted by the humans, who are afraid she will.