Sunday, July 18, 2010

Another Day, Another Draft

So I (finally) managed to complete the 3rd Draft of "Blood Skies". This is a significant event for me in that I have never had enough patience with a writing project to subject myself to the unearthly horrors of revision more than once, let alone three times. This is probably a very good sign.

Revision is a strange beast. On the one hand, you get the impression that it should be easy...after all, you've already done the hardest part (writing 80K+ pages). All you're doing now is polishing it, right?

Not so much. I find I abhor my writing never so much as when I have to read it again. Part of that loathing is similar to what I sometimes experience while writing a first draft: a novel (or story, or script, or whatever) is never so perfect as when it exists only inside of the hollow nether regions of my skull. Putting the idea to paper almost seems a cruel thing to do to something so beautiful as an idea untarnished by shoddy execution.

Revision, to me, is a related but altogether different travesty. While in the throes of a first draft, I can often delude myself into thinking I've somehow managed to put a quality tale to the page, especially when I recall those late hours and early mornings where jaws of life would be required to pry me away from my writing. Going back and having to examine the writing -- to pull it into the light and examine every terrible metaphor and ill constructed sentence under a microscope -- is sort of like looking at yourself in the mirror naked after you've worked out. "Really?" you ask your novel/reflection. Yes, really.

So the fact that I'm still hanging with "Blood Skies" for what will now be a 4th draft is pretty miraculous. That, or it's just a sign of the fact that I haven't had inspiration to write much of anything else lately. ;)

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Blood Skies: Prelude

And now, the Prelude to the all new and improved 3rd draft of my novel, "Blood Skies".


blood skies

steven montano

Across fields of broken sand and salt estuaries, nestled at the edge of a cold and frozen sea, standing opposite a forlorn tower of black metal and razor protrusions, stands a city of the living. It is unnatural – it doesn’t belong. It teeters at the edge of a frozen marsh. Transparent frost limes the outer walls; strange insects like cursive figures from an alien land lie frozen in ice colored amber by dirt and rust. The white and gray fields are illuminated by a frozen sun trapped in a sea of turgid clouds.

He sees it all. He feels, in a way, as if he has never seen it before. Cold bitter wind that curls off the surface of the frozen sea carries foreign substance: corrosive salt and the brine of alien fish, undine fog and arcane steam. The sky is striated into alternating layers of dark and light, as if a cross-section of some aerial soil, and the horizon is strangely split, simultaneously too far and too close, two dimensional, a flat screen of debris filled sky.

Nothing seems to belong. The world has been cleaved, and then refused by a blind hand. There is a sense of wrongness, a heavy and catastrophic air, a sense of temporary. He feels and sees it, can almost taste it, even though he is not really there. Is it a dream? A vision? Does it matter?

He sees into the heart of Thornn, its angled towers and iron catwalks, its crenellated domes and flying bunkers. Fields of half-built ships made to sail through the air. Fields bound in razor wire and protected by automaton gun turrets made of ancient steel, and that swivel on grinding arcane gears. Dirigibles piloted by lightweight Gol aeronauts, unpeople, dwarf and misshapen, bound by the shared knowledge that they have been changed but forever unaware of what was truly done to them. In a way, the Gol are representative of the entire world.

Things were different before The Black, and everyone knows it. But no one knows in what way.

He soars over the rooftops, cognizant of the fact that he is flying, unable to feel any real sensation of doing so. He is an intangible: he sees and feels and smells the world as if through some spiritual lens. He is a spiritual camera, a robot essence with no form. He is a medium.

He feels her with him. He is never alone, and he is glad for it. She presses against him, her ethereal skin laced to his like a warm and sticky sheet. Her thoughts penetrate him; her breath holds him like warm vapor. He wears her like armor, like skin. Her form corrodes, reforms, comes together once more in a shimmering rain that trails him through this aether, a spectral wake.

Twisted streets, narrow lanes, crooked houses. Architecture fused together by need. Ancient and medieval, but laced with things he knows are modern: streetlights powered by arcane batteries, hot dog vendors, percussive music created by programmable machines. Thick clouds of industrial smoke litter the sky, shot from tall brick factory chimneys; the black and red smoke fills the sky, creates an aerial wall that drifts in and out of his sight. Tall windows spill yellow light as the pale sun descends, as the glare of reflection that spills across the land slowly begins to ebb. He hears voices and wagon wheels, horses and steam whistles. He feels thaumaturgic current, the crackle of the arcane energies that provide warmth to the city. He smells warm bread and hot cider, alcohol and smoking artificial meat. He hears laughter, a baby crying, the clang of steel being hammered into armor or stakes.

There are crosses everywhere, all over the city, hanging over doorways, imprinted on buildings, drawn on the road in hexed chalk and blessed inks. They are iron and bronze, hammered and hand painted, tall and thin or fat and squat; some more resemble ankhs, some look like blades. None of them do any good: everyone knows it, and they are not concerned, for they are not there for practical purpose, but are just symbols of the ongoing conflict.

Across the fields of ice and salt, past the broken channels of sluggish dirt-filled water and shattered stone, stands the nearest Doomspire. It is a sliver from the city walls: a black spike, a malevolent needle surrounded by a nimbus of roaming shadow. It is only one of many, but it is from there that most of the attacks against the city of Thornn are launched.

He wants to dream of a world where none of this has happened: of a place without The Black, a place where his shattered memories of a peaceful childhood are untarnished. He wants to dream of a sky than doesn’t darken, of a world that doesn’t smell of rot, where he can lay down to sleep without fear of never waking. He doesn’t know why, instead, he dreams of this place, the world that he knows, the world that he wants to escape.

All he wants is to dream of something different: of a place where he is not afraid.

Friday, June 4, 2010

A Playlist of my current favorite tunes...

[because posting this is much more fun than working on that $#@!^! Risk Analysis Report...)

:Wumpscut: -- Autophagy Day
Die Form -- Voltaic Control System
Imperative Reaction -- Minus All
Suicide Commando -- Come Down With Me
God Module -- A Minute to Midnight
VNV Nation -- Sentinal
Necessary Response -- Spilling Blood
System Syn -- The Inconvenient
Assemblage 23 -- Collapse
The Parallel Project -- Motive
De/Vision -- Try to Forget (radio-forg edit)
Seabound -- Without You
The Dust of Basement -- In This Sky
Ashbury Heights -- Spiders
Ladyhawke -- Magic
Mesh -- Who Says? (rough mix)
IAMX -- After Every Party I Die
Ego Likeness -- Sirens and Satellites
Destroid -- Let Me Leave
Blaqk Audio -- Stiff Kittens
Shiny Toy Guns -- Le Disko
Yeah Yeah Yeahs -- Zero
We Got This Far -- Sedona
Psy'aviah -- Something Evil
Informatik -- Temporary (the synthetic dream foundation mix)
Biomekkanik -- Pitch Black Ocean
Velvet Acid Christ -- Black Rainbows
Kirlian Camera -- Odyssey Europa (premiere version)
Colony 5 -- Knives
Stromkern -- Stand Up (extended remix)
Rotersand -- Extermine Annihilate Destroy
Tristesse de la Lune -- Time Is Moving
Diary of Dreams -- Kindrom
Diorama -- The Girls
ohGr -- Jako
Royskopp -- What Else Is There
Goldfrapp -- Ride A White Horse
Ministry -- Revenge
Metric -- Help, I'm Alive
Client -- Lights Go Out
Schiller mit Heppner -- Leben (I Feel You)
Suicidal Romance -- Make Me Blind
Panic Lift -- Hold On
System Syn -- Like Every Insect
Aesthetic Perfection -- Pale
The Retrosic -- The Storm (sirene)
Suicide Commando -- Until We Die
:Wumpscut: -- Crown of Thorns (suicide commando remix)
Blutengel -- Angel of the Dark
Ayria -- Disease
Tristesse de la Lune -- Strangeland
Diorama -- Child of Entertainment
Shiny Toy Guns -- Major Tom (Coming Home)
Veil Veil Vanish -- Anthem for a Doomed Youth
System Syn -- Here's to You
Bruderschaft -- Forever (original club mix)
Covenant -- Like Tears In Rain
De/Vision -- Time to Be Alive
Necessary Reponse -- Vapor
Depeche Mode -- Precious

Sunday, February 14, 2010

To My Wife

I love you.

I’m not really sure how else to say it than that: I love you. But there are so many pieces to that.
I love the way that you look. I love the way that you smile.
I love you. I love the way that you feel when I touch you. I love the way that you touch me.
I love the way that you make me feel: giddy, young, naughty. In love.
I love your practicality. I love your effort, and your supportiveness, even though I usually feel like I don’t deserve all that you give.
I love waking up next to you. I love feeling warm from your touch, and hot from thinking about you.
I love not knowing what to expect on a day that I wake up next to you. I love waking up and holding you in my arms.
I love your intelligence. I love your sense of humor. I love how hard you’re willing to fight to make us better.
I love watching you sleep. I love hearing your voice. I love your face, holding it close, caressing it. I love the feel of your hair in my fingers.
I love how you dress. I love how you smile. I love looking at old pictures of you, and realizing how I love you even more now than I did then, whenever “then” was.
I love to help you out around the house. I love to make you breakfast. I love to bring you warm drinks at night.
I love the way that you look at me…even when it’s “the crabby look” (:)), but especially when you look at me and melt my heart because I can tell how much you love me, too.
I will always love you. I will prove to you, each and every day, that I deserve the love you’ve given me, and the love you continue to give to me. You are so beautiful, so wonderful, and so warm.

I love you.

Friday, January 29, 2010

Another Dark Playlist

Just because. This is about 4 1/2 hours worth of music for those with an appreciation of spending way too much time in the dark.

Acretongue -- Hollow (V 2.0)
De/Vision -- Addict
Ravenous -- Silverray (Guardian Angel Edit)
Neuroticfish -- Music for a Paranormal Life (Intelligent Tribal Mix)
Helium Vola -- Omnis Mundi Creatura
Die Form -- Rain of Blood
Stabbing Westward -- Drugstore
Apoptygma Berzerk -- Love Never Dies
Beborn Beton -- Another World
Fictional -- Blue Lights
And One -- Panzermensch
VNV Nation -- Sentinal
Colony 5 -- Knives
Aesthetic Perfection -- The Siren
Funker Vogt -- Martians on the Moon
My Life w/ Thrill Kill Kult -- The Days of Swine and Roses
Controlled Collapse -- Selfless
Fiction 8 -- Let Go
Assemblage 23 -- Collapse
Diorama -- The Girls
The Birthday Massacre -- Play Dead
Siouxsie & the Banshees -- Into the Light
She Wants Revenge -- Out of Control
Rob Zombie -- Living Dead Girl
Revolting Cocks -- Do Ya Think I'm Sexy?
OhGr -- Water
Numb -- Blood
Mentallo & the Fixer -- Decomposed (trampled)
Necessary Response -- Spilling Blood
System Syn -- I Am Here
Rob D -- Clubbed to Death (Kurayamino mix)
David Bowie -- I'm Afraid of Americans
Delerium -- Silence
Garbage -- #1 Crush
Peter Murphy -- I'll Fall With Your Knife
Depeche Mode -- Precious
Concrete Nature -- Vampyres
Diary of Dreams -- The Curse
Informatik -- Temporary (synthetic dream foundation mix)
Mesh -- Who Says? (rough mix)
I: Scintillia -- Melt
Destroid -- Judgement Throne
Bruderschaft -- Forever (original club mix)
Ashbury Heights -- Corsair
Ayria -- Invisible
Imperative Reaction -- As We Fall
Unheilig -- Phoenix
Biomekkanik -- Pitch Black Ocean
Technoir -- Breathe (Iris remix)
Icon of Coil -- Dead Enough for Life
The Dust of Basement -- Your Light (club mix)
Edge of Dawn -- Stage Fright
Grendel -- Zombienation (V2.5K)
We Got This Far -- Sedona
Velvet Acid Christ -- Black Rainbows
Kirlian Camera -- Odyssey Europa (premiere version))

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I'm on TV!

No, this article isn't about me...but if you fast forward to about :21 seconds remaining, you'll catch a quick glimpse of my geeky self reading a book on the train.

Autographs available upon request.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

I felt like being a DJ the other day...

so I threw together a playlist for the imaginary goth/industrial club in my mind. Despite the fact that it doesn't contain a lot of new music (outside of A23) and has one definite no-no (Lady Gaga...oh, well, I'm allowed one bit of randomness), I don't think it's half bad.

Clan of Xymox Obsession
Soil & Eclipse Thief of Always
Depeche Mode A Pain That I'm Used to
Lady Gaga Pokerface
Unheilig Fang Mich Auf
Covenant Call the Ships to Port
Rosetta Stone Adrenaline (extended)
Fictional Blue Lights
Bigod 20 On the Run
Pinworm Acetone
VNV Nation Legion
Skinny Puppy Inquisition (extended)
Battery The Betrayel (megamix)
Thrill Kill Kult The Days of Swine and Roses
Sister of Mercy Nine While Nine
Snake River Conscpiracy Lovesong
London After Midnight Kiss
Juno Reactor God is God
Garbage #1 Crush
Die Form Rain of Blood
NIN Reptile
Mesh Trust You
Apoptygma Berzerk Love Never Dies
Wolfsheim Heroin, She Said
Depeche Mode Lie to Me
Assemblage 23 Collapse
Beborn Beton Another World
Heavy Water Factory Vampire (tasture mix)
SITD Snuff Machinery
Stromkern Night Riders
Delerium Euphoria (Firefly)
Rob D Clubbed to Death (Kurayamino mix)
Love & Rockets Haunted When the Minutes Drag
The Cure Lullaby
Rob Zombie Living Dead Girl
Wumpscut Hang Him Higher
KMFDM Anarchy
Razed in Black Oh My Goth!
Project Pitchfork Timekiller
Megaherz Du Oder Ich
Stabbing Westward Save Yourself
Depeche Mode John the Revelator
Massive Attack Inertia Creeps
Switchblade Symphony Wallflower
Siouxsie & the Banshees Into the Light
Informatik Entropy
Suicide Commando The Reformation
VNV Nation Chrome
Imperative Reaction Drown
Funker Vogt A Dream
She Wants Revenge I Don't Wanna Fall in Love
Covenant Bullet
Diary of Dreams Butterfly:Dance!
Dead Can Dance Yulungu
Concrete Blonde Bloodletting (the Vampire Song)
Assemblage 23 Spark
Bigod 20 Like A Prayer
Fluke Atom Bomb
Unit 187 Dead Dog (punter mix)
Hocico Forgotten Tears (suicide commando mix)
Das Ich Destillat (VNV nation mix)
Numb Blood
Wolfsheim The Sparrows & the Nightingales
Skinny Puppy Testure (12" mix)
Snog Hey, Christian God